Known problems of little recourse

In the past few months I?ve been around so many people who are warm, open and receptive to me that I?ve nearly forgotten what it?s like to deal with people who are not.? Today I find myself dealing with someone who has been very difficult to communicate with on those levels.? The feeling is quite frustrating.? I?m not getting a true feedback in support of actions that are reflecting disinterest in the things that I?m about.? I feel like I?m trying to gather up leaves in a swirling wind.? This is particularly upsetting in that the projected festivities were full of merriment. In truth, had I anticipated this poor sense of togetherness I would never had called this project to begin with.

My personal resources are much too strained for me to be wasting them on gambles made of wishful dreams.? So far I?ve received very little return for my investment which has led me to a certain level of self doubt.? I wonder when the time will come that I might get it right, if such a time even exist.? Right now I need to believe that it does almost as badly as there is a need for something tangible to believe in.? The feeling that comes from the realization that I have once again built my castle of sand on the shores of low tide is an extremely difficult one to overcome.? Am I really strong enough to rise above it again?

My spiritual teachings say the I am full of the power to overcome anything.? In such a time as this I have to stand fast on these beliefs and look to the moment of victory.? The damage has already been surveyed and inventoried.? Nothing more can be gained by continuing to make note of it.? The time is now for pressing on.

K

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